Crop of Self-Portrait (in progress)
There comes a point in every protagonist’s story where a crucial decision must be made. Where change is option A, and option B is to remain stagnant. I have opted for A and you know, it is scary but not nearly as scary as remaining exactly the same. I was most frightened when I approached the crossroads. Once I chose my A option I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and waited for some kind of self-destruction.
As you can see, that did not happen. I am still here. How crazy is that.
With the choosing came the change. Here are a few examples:
–I have a new workspace with huge floor to ceiling windows that face the Continental Divide.
–I have been painting AND working AND playing, though still trying to perfect the balance. It’s been heavy on the “working.”
–The nice part of that is that I illustrated a book. I will have my name on a book cover. This may sound kind of obvious but it is honestly the first time that has happened.
–I started teaching an art class 3 weeks ago. I’ve never taught before. I like… no I love it, much to my surprise.
–I donated two paintings to auction to benefit a local charity. Both sold. I thought it would be painful to part with my babies, but no. I felt liberated by it. Proud even. My art stood side-by-side with some of Colorado’s most highly-respected artists. Which in turn made me a peer of such painters. That’s really cool.
–Music. After a long hiatus, I have wound some shiny new strings on my guitar and carved a little niche for it in my living space (rather than shoved under the bed). My fingers have been itching thanks to all the new music I’ve come to love. I’m also going to lots and lots of live shows this summer. I have pledged to myself that I will attend every show in which I have even the most remote interest. This weekend it’s the Grand Archives at Hi-Dive.
–This return to music fanhood has affected my wardrobe. It’s getting a little funky. 🙂
–Alone time. I treasure it, I love it, I look forward to it. Especially after art class. 🙂
–Current reads: “Wreck This Journal” by Keri Smith, “Everyday Matters” and “The Creative License” by Danny Gregory. And Wuthering Heights when I can’t sleep.
I do believe the right half of my brain has completely taken over and its having a crazy party and there’s nothing I can do about it. Not that I’m complaining. I’m just tickled to be invited.
*exhale*
